I'm so confused. I don't even know what my own thoughts mean anymore.
One thing seems so clear one moment and the next it's so infinitely complicated that I can't even let it cross my mind without getting a headache.
Other things that used to give me butterflies now give me moths. Make me feel sick. Physically sick to my stomach. And sometimes I just don't believe my past self.
I think that this is the first blog in a while that hasn't been completely nonsensical... Depending on how you look at it I suppose.