Saturday, November 29, 2008

How many people...

Ok, well... um, I'm really annoyed.

My friends all think I'm evil, because John's told them things that aren't true! I told him the truth about everything and he just took it upon himself to assume I was lying! That is not fair!!

What am I supposed to do?! I was honest with him and he just pretended like everything I said was a lie... what more can I do other than tell him the truth?! I've already tried that!

God help.

Twist and Shout!!!

I know it hasn't been long since I posted my last blog... but I just had to talk.

I did the right thing. I know I did the right thing. I'm sure I did the right thing.

*Deep breath.*

So, it's kind of like, over. With John.
And I know I've hardly even mentioned him... but I've been reading my old MySpace blogs and I realised how open I used to be and how good it felt... and I wanted to kind of return to that style of bloggingness. Rather than all the cryptic crap, all the time. Obviously, that crops up from time to time, because... well, because sometimes I just feel like that.

But I think I was going out of my way to be mysterious and kind of cool... but that's not what blogging is about, and I used to know that! How did I ever forget?!

I miss venting.

So, John. It just wasn't... right. And, I mean, I haven't even told my parents. I haven't told most of my friends. I've told... well, my brother, and four of my friends. That's like, it. Wait, like, five. And, well, this is huge. I'm not sure I want to tell people though. I mean, I suppose this is kind of telling people... if people even read this.
But you know. I mean telling people. In person. Which is how I'd have to talk to the parentals about it. Not that they'd be super worried... but you know... yeah, look, I don't even know.
*Lets out breath I've been holding for four months.*

I feel much better now.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Free Fallin'

She's a good girl, loves her mama
Loves Jesus and America too
She's a good girl, crazy 'bout Elvis
Loves horses and her boyfriend too

It's a long day living in reseda
There's a freeway runnin' through the yard
And I'm a bad boy 'cause I don't even miss her
I'm a bad boy for breakin her heart

And I'm free, free fallin'
Yeah I'm free, free fallin'

All the vampires walkin' through the valley
Move west down ventura boulevard
And all the bad boys are standing in the shadows
All the good girls are home with broken hearts

And I'm free, free fallin'
Yeah I'm free, free fallin'
Free fallin', now I'm free fallin', now I'm
Free fallin', now I'm free fallin', now I'm

I wanna glide down over mulholland
I wanna write her name in the sky
Gonna free fall out into nothin'
Gonna leave this world for a while

And I'm free, free fallin'
Yeah I'm free, free fallin'

So, I do. I am.

So what?

Saturday, November 22, 2008


"People just liked it better that way!"

Do you think people look out for themselves first, even when they act like you're more important? Should we trust people when they tell us things about us that we hadn't realised? Did we not realise because we're so self-critical, or because it's not true?

Thursday, November 6, 2008


I like him.
Really, I do.
It's not the end of the world.
Well, at least, I hope not.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Welcome to Hollywood

Lives are precious. Did you know?
Well now you do.