Tuesday, March 24, 2009

I've got nothing to say...

Mood: pain
Listening to: Steer by Missy Higgins
Reading: Dark Lover by J. R. Ward
Watching: Avatar: The Last Airbender
Playing: Breathe by Taylor Swift
Eating: Veggies and bread
Drinking: Chamomile tea

What is it with headaches and their ability to incapacitate you? I mean, that's not a very nice thing to do, is it?

I had Deb practice after school today. It was... I don't know. I had a headache, so I probably didn't enjoy it as much as I usually do... it was... tedious.

The thing is, I actually don't have anything to say. I just wanted to say... well, something. I felt like blogging... and yet, there's nothing to say...

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Where, O Death, is thy sting?

There's never enough time for anything! Why is that? I just find my time disappearing down the drain before I can even register that it's there, before I can even do something with it. I planned to spend all day today doing my English homework and then my History essay and then, if I had time, my Psychology work. But I haven't done any of that. I mean, granted I did sort of work on homework all day, being on our Philosophy wiki, which sort of counts, but I just can't get motivated to do what I'm supposed to do! My work! I'm so behind and the weekend was when I was supposed to catch up. Last weekend, the weekend before that... and I just keep doing other things. I just keep doing everything else except my homework.
*Sigh.* I need to go have a shower.

Thursday, March 19, 2009


You've been played at a game
Called remembering your name
And you stuffed it up
But the search ends here
Where the night is totally clear
And your heart is fierce
So now you finally know
That you control where you go
You can steer
And get out of the box
And step into the clear
'Cause now you finally know
You can steer
Why does everyone bother about... everything? I mean, I was thinking today, I used to get so up in arms about the littlest, stupidest things. And you know, sometimes I react to them in my mind now, but I don't bother saying anything out loud, I don't bother being serious about it. It's like I've suddenly opened my eyes, and realised that I'm just a baby, and I don't know anything and everything I thought was important is nothing.
Even this, right now. Me sitting here wasting my time writing a blog about all of this feels so pointless to me. And I just don't understand my past self. How did I look at anything and see it as important and worth my time. I feel like my whole life has been wasted on nonsense and uselessness.
"For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief."
Ecclesiastes :18